I think a lot of people are like me in this way.
You go into a shop and you look on the rails, but you can't find your size anywhere.
I normally wear a 14, but sometimes in large running dresses I wear a 12, and in small running trousers or jeans I wear a 16.
It's a lottery.
I've pretty much always been between these sizes. When I've lost weight I've never been below a 12, when I've put on weight I've never been above a 16 - apart from once - but when my size 16s stopped fitting I decided to start dieting.
It's strange to be this kind of in-between size, even though there are a lot of us who are here.
If like me you're overweight and look a bit too chubby for your frame, then generally you're not accepted in the 'attractive by society's standards' category.
But by the same token, if you're not obese or plus-sized, then you don't really fit into the plus-sized community either.
It seems like there aren't really many communities for us not-plus-sized-not-skinny-enough-to-be-conventionally attractive people. It's a bit of a weird grey area I don't feel is particularly catered to in the media nor in fashion.
In the plus sized community you see people like Tess Holiday, who I can't really relate to that much. I don't really fit in on any sort of community on Instagram, with communities usually veering between super-fit and svelte or curvy and proud.
I think it's great that there are these communities - I love that health at every size has taken off - but sometimes I wish I saw more people a bit more like me - after all, aren't there a lot of us?
Or is there a different reason why I can never find a size 14 in the clothing I like on shop rails?
Of course plus-sized men and women have been hugely unrepresented and discriminated against in society for such a long time and I'm so glad that plus-sized fashion has taken off, that fat acceptance is becoming more common and that brands such as Simply Be are now in the mainstream.
But just once in a while though I'd like to see models who land somewhere between an 8 and an 18.
What do you think about this? Do you feel represented in the fashion world? Is including 'in-between' sizes just pandering to straight sizes anyway? Do you mind not seeing your size represented?
Let me know what you think!